One father's mission to find his daughter, 18 years before the chilling confession of Joran van der Sloot. I am a father who has no idea what has happened to his child. The questions run through my mind all day long. They keep me awake at night. Is she dead? Is she alive? Is she being held captive somewhere? Are they hurting her? Is she crying out for me? These are the impassioned words of Dave Holloway, father of Natalee Holloway, whose disappearance in Aruba sparked a media frenzy and an international scandal in 2005. This is the heart-wrenching story of his search, the most complete account of Natalee Holloway's disappearance in Aruba. During a then ongoing investigation, Holloway discloses: · behind-the-scenes details of the investigation · new revelations about the corruption of the Aruban law enforcement · and the countless trails leading to possible rape, murder, and even sexual slavery This is the first insider's account of one of this century’s most disturbing and mysterious true crime stories. Holloway relates the horror of personally searching through crack houses and trash dumps for Natalee––working alone, with authorities, even with psychics––while enduring the stonewalling of Aruban officials. Learn what really went on behind the headlines, and follow the hopeful heart of a father as he searches tirelessly for his precious daughter.