None of us like to hear the word No - especially as an answer to our prayers. So how does a father reconcile a lifelong faith in God when confronted with the word no regarding something as critical as the healing of his youngest child? This book is a two year journey through that wilderness of no. It contains few answers and many questions, but ultimately a faith that there is a loving God who chose a path we will never understand on this side of heaven. When Kylie was diagnosed with cancer in April of 2014, her father believed that she would be completely healed and become a living testimony to God's faithfulness and goodness. That is not the story that God wrote. A writer and blogger, Mark began posting about his struggles of heart and faith with a unique ability to mix humor and heartache. His genuine and often raw style seemed to resonate with many hurting people and his words were shared on many platforms. Upon Kylie's death in February 2015, he began a journey to find purpose among the ruins heaped on him, his family, and his faith - documenting both progress and set-backs. With several never-before published writings including an especially poignant letter written by Kylie just days before her death, this book is a compilation of blog posts and journal entries that allows you to walk alongside him for this season. It will bring both smiles and tears. You will feel his hope and faith while he faces the struggle, endures the pain of devastating loss, then embarks on a desperate search for meaning, while always: Missing Kylie. **Proceeds from the sale of this book will be used to fight childhood cancer in memory of Kylie.